Riot As Strategy?: A Critique on the Breakdown of Violence in the BART Police Protest

Let's talk for a moment about the use of violence as a form of reactionary protest. Since the Oakland riots last week, this has been largely on my mind. While some have reacted positively to the destruction (see account in my reportback), for many others, especially during this economic crisis, the riot created greater difficulties.

In my younger days, I was all about fucking shit up as a measure of my anger and dissent of state power. But last Wednesday, watching as rioters smashed store windows and cars on a street lined with Korean and Chinese-owned shops, I felt a pang of protectiveness and resentment towards those who were causing the destruction.

Don't fuck with my peoples' shit! I yelled sardonically. I was only half joking. No one paid attention.

Each time the police dispersed us, we mobbed through quieter neighborhoods, running sidestreet to the major intersections of the police standoffs. Mail boxes knocked down, trashcans dragged out, cars smashed up, small fires being lit. Predominantly black neighborhoods.

Why are we rioting through the streets of our own communities - the ones that we are supposedly demanding justice for? We should be setting police stations on fire, breaking bank windows, and bum-rushing BART stations. Not destroying the property of our struggling brothers and sisters.

Many articles, such as this one, have since reported comments from various storekeepers whose shops fell victim to the riots. By now, I think everyone's heard about Creative African Braids. The woman who owns the hair salon is pissed that the rioters targeted her shop, a black family-run business, and criticized the protest, calling the protesters "stupid", among other things.

The intentions behind the protest Wednesday night is a far cry from stupid. But these criticisms and this kind of tangible misguided destruction give the media more fodder to discredit the validity of the protest's demands. It creates obstacles against building bridges between communities and gaining allies within movements. For those sitting on the fence, this can make or break their political support of an issue.

It gets worse.

An account from a fellow comrade's blog: "Another friend said that an older Asian man -- on crutches no less-- pleaded with rioting youth not to smash his car up. But they did. Right in front of him. And i saw a middle aged Asian woman running, screaming because her bag had been snatched."

Many fires were lit, and stones thrown, by those in the black bloc. "Anarchists". Well, predominantly white youth, dressed in all black, wearing black bandanas, and waving a black flag. Many were not even from Oakland, and I wonder how many were familiar with the areas that they were rioting in. The way some of them escalated rioting scenes really pisses me off. As anarchists, I expect them to know better, and to recognize when it is their place and time to escalate a situation, and when to step back in solidarity as allies in a struggle. To march into a protest preoccupied with their own agenda above all others is selfish and entitled to me. To be able to walk away while other are left to pick up the pieces is to avoid accountability. For those who have been arrested, I stand in solidarity with them.

How can we demand accountability when those of us within the movement cannot even do it ourselves? We must lead by example if we are to gain the trust and faith of others and create stronger alliances against governmental terrorism.

"Revolutionaries"? "Anarchists"? As a self-identified anarchist activist (who also has a few black bandanas), this is embarrassing. It leads me to wonder, when the shit hits the fan, will we remember why we are fighting? Will we even know? Is it possible to reconcile such chaotic fury with collective solidarity when massive public direct actions escalate? For the brothers and sisters who helplessly feel the brunt of the destruction the next morning, how can we be mindful to include them in our actions of solidarity and protest?

I'd like to think that everything is possible. As responsible autonomous activists, one of the most radical positions we can take on is to hold ourselves accountable for our actions, and ask ourselves how these actions will affect - not only those involved in the moment - but those who will be affected the next days, months, years afterwards. The systemic hierarchies of power imposed on race and class dynamics are elusive, and we must remember to check ourselves using an anti-oppression lense in order to disarm these oppressive structures, and avoid these destructive power dynamics from manifesting internally within our own movements and struggles.

Don't get me wrong. A flaming dumpster shoved into a cop car as angry protesters jump on it and smash chairs into the windshield is goddamn satisfying sight.

Yet, in the particular context, this kind of reactionary violence may be cathartic, but in the long run, it is counterproductive. An angry mob is a volatile weapon - and though I would opt for a non-violent path if given the choice - sometimes fighting back becomes necessary for one's basic emotional and physical survival. So let's start talking about how we can wield this weapon more effectively, and arm ourselves with strategy.

Support for Those Arrested in the Protest - Repost from Berkeley CopWatch

By the way, CAPE sponsored the rally at Fruitvale BART and is not responsible for events that took place later on. They have sent this message and Copwatch is encouraging everyone to show solidarity. See how quick the DA can arraign people when he wants to...

From the Coalition Against Police Execution:

Critical Resistance and the National Lawyers Guild are amassing lists of names of arrestees and trying to do visits to support folks getting released.

Please call the NLG hotline (415) 285-1011 if you know of someone who has been arrested and/or email me nat@criticalresistance.org. At this point, we are still creating a list of folks who were arrested, and folks are being charged with obstruction, rioting, failure to disperse, remaining at the scene of a riot and unlawful assembly. Most folks are either being held at Santa Rita jail or the Glenn Dyer County Jail.

Many folks are being cited and released and are awaiting a February court date, but many are being held at Glenn Dyer for their

court date Jan. 9th (Friday) at 2pm
Wiley W. Manuel Courthouse
Room 107
661 Washington (near 7th)
Oakland

Please come to support arrestees tomorrow, and if you have the means, try to raise bail money for folks being held. Again, if you know of someone who may have been arrested, please contact us, and if you can do legal support, please contact us as well.

By the way- Check out this Oscar Grant art!! Download print and distribute!

http://www.eastsideartsalliance.com/

Justice for Oscar Grant! Protest His Untimely Death - Wed, Jan. 7, 3-7pm

Repost. I don't know who is organizing this protest, but the event was posted on my Facebook.
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Justice for Oscar Grant
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
3:00pm - 7:00pm
FRUITVALE BART STATION
3401 East 12th Street
Oakland, CA

Please spread the word - we need numbers tomorrow to show our outrage and demand accountability!

WE DEMAND:

1) All officers involved be taken off duty without pay, and fully prosecuted;

2) That the U.S. Justice Department investigate the incident as a violation of civil rights;

3) That BART establish an independent citizens’ review board for its officers; and

4) That the BART police officers be disarmed!

STOP THE U.S./ISRAELI WAR IN GAZA! National Day of Protest: San Francisco, Washington, Los Angeles...

Repost. Spread the word.
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National Day of Protest Against the Israeli Bombings in Gaza
Saturday, January 10, 2009
11:00am - 6:00pm
Civic Center
San Francisco, CA

The Israeli government has escalated its constant attacks on Gaza into a ground invasion. Hundreds of Palestinians have been murdered and thousands wounded. The bombs are being dropped on schools, homes, ambulances, tunnels, places of worship and more.

Millions of people around the world are demonstrating to stop the attacks on Gaza and in solidarity with the Palestinian people. The ANSWER Coalition, Free Palestine Alliance, Muslim American Society Freedom Foundation, National Council of Arab Americans, and Al-Awda-International Palestine Right to Return Coalition call on people across the country and around the world to take to the streets to show solidarity with the Palestinian People in Gaza and demand an immediate end to the murderous attacks carried out by the U.S.-backed Israeli military.

Tenderloin Webcams and the Growing Threat of Surveillance Culture in San Francisco

Recently, there has been a buzz in San Francisco about the guy who set up his two video cameras to film a span of Tenderloin street downstairs from his apartment. Complete with microphone to record the audio of "street sounds", Adam Jackson created a website, adamsblock.com, which aired the 24 hour live streams of Taylor St. captured from these cameras, as well as message boards where people could discuss what they saw.

Due to the controversy and harassment that Jackson faced as a result, he has since stepped away from this little project, but a fire has been set under Big Brother's ass.

You can read about it here.

So, this white guy moves into the Tenderloin - a neighborhood historically notorious for its seedy reputation and high population of homeless - and decides that he will use his video camera and computer to create a website with the intention of making "his" neighborhood quieter and safer. He, and all the other self-appointed "guardians of the streets", use the footage to narc on other people in the neighborhood with a self-righteous vengeance.













This strategy of neighborhood watch is dangerously divisive (not to mention rude and invasive), especially in a volatile neighborhood such as the Tenderloin, where poverty and crime are magnified due to a more visible presence of poor people on the streets. The fact that the police are in support of Adam Jackson and his idea should be of great concern to anyone who is against the invasive techniques of surveillance culture.

The conditions of the Tenderloin itself are a striking testimony to the oppressive, ineffective ways that many urban cities deals with issues rooted in poverty, such as homelessness, substance use, and sex work. Similar to the situation I observed in Skid Row when I lived in downtown Los Angeles, the Tenderloin is where San Francisco's
'undesirables' are given just a little bit more wiggle room to get away with certain crimes of survival. It is the city's way of keeping above-ground poverty in a more centralized location, so that the rest of the city (the nicer neighborhoods) will be less burdened with its eye-sore. It is a consequence of criminalizing and perpetuating poverty, and only addressing the needs of the poor through band-aid, quick-fix legislations while funding for vital social services continue to get hacked.

The arguments in support of these neighborhood cameras are the same arguments that our government uses to justify this war on terror. And even if this surveillance system is initially in the hands of independent citizens, you can bet that the city, state, even federal government, will unfailingly stick its dirty paws into it when they decide the time is right.

According to the article in the SF Gate, "Jackson said at least three other sites have sprung up independently, and there has been interest in linking all of them together through ourblock.com. It is possible that neighborhoods all over the city will have 24-hour cameras. That was Jackson's idea all along."

With the continued demonization of homeless people, "thugs" (which, to white people, often translates to: black or brown person wearing baggy pants and a hoodie. and if there's more than one of them walking together at night, you can bet this white person is about to shit themselves), sex workers, people who buy/sell/use substances, etc., the privilege of using and accessing surveillance cameras in the Tenderloin will only increase the race and class divide. The possibility of 24 hour cameras in neighborhoods all over the city hits too close to Orwellian to bode well.

Since Jackson stepped back and adamsblock.com was taken down, this url now takes you to what may soon be ourblock.tv. Their goal is to serve as the hub for a global network of neighborhood watch webcams, stating, "We are running this in an effort to make a difference in the world." I will leave you with a disturbing excerpt from its message boards:

11:45 jen__luv: I am sorry to hear about everthing you went through.People are pathetic.
3:42 towahead: keep in going and the losers off the streets
3:45 towahead: why did you wimp out dudet
3:46 towahead: too many losers of color on there

Scary.

Tools for White Guys Working for Social Change (and other people socialized in a society based on domination)

Here is one more reading where Chris Crass outlines some practical strategies for minimizing everyday patterns of domination. And while these exercises are especially important for white guys, these are useful practices we all can utilize in our daily lives towards undermining hierarchies of domination which create and perpetuate cycles of oppression!

And yes, I've been both busy and lazy lately, hence the cutnpaste posts of late. This is the last one of these for now though, so expect less lists, and more rambling ranting coming soon!

Enjoy!
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1. Practice noticing who's in the room at meetings - how many men, how many women, how many white people, how many people of color, is it majority heterosexual, are there out queers, what are people's class backgrounds. Don't assume to know people, but also work at being more aware.

2a. Count how many times you speak and keep track of how long you speak.
2b. Count how many times other people speak and keep track of how long they speak.

3. Be conscious of how often you are actively listening to what other people are saying as opposed to just waiting your turn and/or thinking about what you'll say next.

4. Practice going to meetings focused on listening and learning; go to some meetings and do not speak at all.

5a. Count how many times you put ideas out to the group.
5b. Count how many times you support other people's ideas for the group.

6. Practice supporting people by asking them to expand on ideas and get more in-depth, before you decide to support the idea or not.

7a. Think about whose work and contribution to the group gets recognized.
7b. Practice recognizing more people for the work they do and try to do it more often.

8. Practice asking more people what they think about meetings, ideas, actions, strategy and vision. White guys tend to talk amongst themselves and develop strong bonds that manifest in organizing. This creates an internal organizing culture that is alienating for most people. Developing respect and solidarity across race, class, gender and sexuality is complex and difficult, but absolutely critical - and liberating.

9. Be aware of how often you ask people to do something as opposed to asking other people "what needs to be done".

10. Think about and struggle with the saying, "you will be needed in the movement when you realize that you are not needed in the movement".

11. Struggle with and work with the model of group leadership that says that the responsibility of leaders is to help develop more leaders, and think about what this means to you.

12. Remember that social change is a process, and that our individual transformation and individual liberation is intimately interconnected with social transformation and social liberation. Life is profoundly complex and there are many contradictions. Remember that the path we travel is guided by love, dignity and respect - even when it is bumpy and difficult to navigate.

13. This list is not limited to white guys, nor is it intended to reduce all white guys into one category. This list is intended to disrupt patterns of domination which hurt our movement and hurt each other. White guys have a lot of work to do, but it is the kind of work that makes life worth living.

14. Day-to-day patterns of domination are the glue that maintain systems of domination. The struggle against capitalism, white supremacy, patriarchy, heterosexism and the state, is also the struggle towards collective liberation.

15. No one is free until all of us are free.

Thanks and love to my comrades in the Bay Area gender privileged men's group of the Ruckus Society and the men's group (biological and transgendered men) of the Challenging White Supremacy Collective.

Intersex List of Demands

Here is one of two separate lists that some gender variant folks developed in Atlanta. It was initially written because they found other lists in regards to sexism to be good, but incomplete and lacking in experiences of gender variant individuals.
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* Don't assume you know someone's sex based on how you perceive them or their gender.

* Don't assume all women have a vagina, uterus, etc.

* Don't assume all men have a penis, testes, etc.

* Don't fetishize our bodies.

* Don't use the word hermaphrodite to describe us unless we identify that way and give permission.

* Don't feel sorry for us.

* Respect our sex identification.

* Don't exploit our existence to discredit biological determinism or other academic ideologies.

* Know the difference between sex and gender.

* Know the difference between intersexed and transgendered.

* Don't ask us or try to picture what our genitals look like.

* Don't ask us if we have sexual sensations.

* Don't assume you have the right to know intimate details of our bodies. We have the right to privacy and safety like all other people.

* Realize we have historically been mutilated, fetishized, and made into freak shows. Understand how this affects us and our safety.

* Don't say "cool" or "weird" or treat us differently when we tell you we are intersexed.

* Educate yourself!!! Read books on intersex.

* Girl, woman, female; boy, man, male are not always interchangeable.

* Don't assume all intersex people are queer.

* Realize that not all people with intersex condition are out.

* Realize that not all people with intersex conditions even know that they are intersexed.

* Remember that we are 1 in 100, and that is not rare at all!!!

* Don't call our conditions "disorders," "retardations," "abnormalities," etc.

* Realize that bodies come in all different shapes, sizes and with different parts.

* Realize how fucking strong we are to speak up about the medical abuse and victimization we have been through and that we deserve mad props.

* Don't write us off as rare and unimportant. Don't put off educating yourself for other "more important" issues.

* In situations such as gender caucuses, keep in mind that not all the people who identify as women have similar genitalia, etc. Understand that we have been taught that our bodies are "wrong" and "ugly" and that it reinforces this when people say they love being women because of their vagina, uterus, etc., this reinforces those feelings. Woman does not necessarily = female. Man does not necessarily = male.

April, 2004
http://www.geocities.com/gainesvilleavengers/intersextransdemands.htm

How To Be A Good Trans/Gender Ally - A List

Here is one of two separate lists that some gender variant folks developed in Atlanta. It was initially written because they found other lists in regards to sexism to be good, but incomplete and lacking in experiences of gender variant individuals.

This "list of demands" for good trans allys are lacking in MTF voices. This list comes out of their community [of mostly FTMs]. I have edited some of the list, and added a few points of my own as well. The list is far from complete, but is a good starting point for further discussions around these issues.

Stay tuned for "How to Be A Good Intersex Ally", and enjoy!

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* Don't assume someone's gender identity.

* Don't constantly reference someone's gender identity in an attempt to seem OK with it. Likewise, don't think we care if you're OK with us or not. No one asked for your approval.

* Don't trip up on pronouns - if you fuck up, simply correct yourself and go on.

* Don't glamorize someone's gender identity or think it's "cool" or say that you're "into it."

* Read trans/gender theory. Know the difference between: transgender, transsexual, gender fucking, gender blending/bending, gender vs. sex, binary gender, passing, transitioning, binding, tucking, packing/stuffing, third genders, drag queens/kings, androgyny, butch, femme, crossdressing, boi, MtF, FtM, tranny boys, tranny dykes, boydykes, transfags, etc., etc., etc.!!!

* Know the difference between intersex and transgender. Think about how you would really feel if someone you loved transitioned. Think about your fears and why you have them.

* Recognize your own transphobia.

* Familiarize yourself with the processes of transitioning and surgery and hormones.

* Don't just name yourself a "trans ally" one day.

* Realize that some of us have struggled with our gender identity for a long time. Don't think that we just woke up one day and decided that we would identify as transgendered. So when we finally find a space that we're comfortable in (even if temporarily), don't co-opt that space or try to make it yours too

* Even if you think fucking with gender is hot, don't talk about it in an objectifying way.

* Realize that it can be hard existing in in-between spaces and really know that trans oppression and transphobia exist. Think about the fear of not being able to determine when you pass, the fear of being arrested/strip searched/thrown in the wrong holding cell, the threat of violence, the annoyance of having to "come out" about your gender identity constantly, etc.

* Recognize and understand the privilege of feeling at home in your body, using a public bathroom, knowing which M/F box to check, having people assume your gender identity and them being right, etc.

* Realize that there is a gender community and that the validation we receive from that community can be incomparable to what you could ever offer us, and let us seek refuge there.

* Recognize how class and race fit into these equations.

* Recognize and respect someone's gender identity regardless of whether or not they choose to have surgery or take hormones. Similarly, don't judge someone for transitioning or not wanting to identify as "transgendered."

* Don't assume that a person's transgender identity is "political."

* Don't partner with us out of some weird transitioning or coming out process for you.

* Don't ask us how we fuck.

* Question your own gender! (But don't then tell me, "You know, I've never felt like a 'real man'/'real woman' either." What this means is - don't assume our experiences are the same.

* Don't ask questions about someone to try to determine their "real gender."

* Don't think that FtM are dealing with some kind of internalized sexism.

* Don't assume our gender identity, render it invisible, or think it doesn't matter because of who we choose to partner with.

* Don't label our gender or sexual identity for us. Recognize the difference between the two!

* Don't think of our experiences and identities as monolithic.

* Don't think we are a "recent emergence" that somehow came out of gender/queer theory and academia.

* Realize that there are a variety of trans/gender expressions. Don't assume that people should express their gender similarly just because they both identify as transgendered. Likewise, don't judge someone because you think that their trans identity and gender expression conflict.

* Think about the language you use to differentiate between trans and non-trans people and if it's even necessary to differentiate.

* Don't assume trans people have a "shared experience" with people assigned the same gender.

* Don't assume FtMs are "better" than other men, or MtFs are not "as good" as other women (especially in terms of sexism).

* When doing introductions at a meeting, say the pronoun you prefer for that space along with your name, etc. (Facilitators should make sure this is done.)

* Be sensitive to pronouns you use for someone when dealing with authority, police. Keep in mind that people's pronouns/gender identity may not always match up with their I.D.

* Don't include us in your process of learning about intersex or trans issues unless we ask you about it.

* Take it upon yourself to educate yourself about issues relevant to the experiences of gender variant individuals, and don't assume that everyone's experiences are reflected in what you've read either.

* Take it easy on yourself - yes, there's a lot to know, so take it one step at a time, and don't get discouraged if you fuck up. We all make mistakes, but learn from them, and keep moving forward.

April, 2004
http://www.geocities.com/gainesvilleavengers/intersextransdemands.htm

25 Ways to Tokenize or Alienate a Non-White Person Around You

(or, 25 Examples of the Racism We Witness on a Regular Basis)
by basil, billie, qwo-li, jenn and colin from Colours of Resistance

1. Walk up to that black girl you barely know in the co-op and say, "What do you think of the new (insert hip-hop artist here) album?"

2. Ask one of the only Arabs in your community to write the article for your newspaper on the situation in Palestine.
a) Then, after they write it, take their research, re-write the article and sign your name to it.

3. In a big group of many activists, say, "How can we bring more people of color into our struggle?"

4. In a big group of many activists, say, "Black people don't have the time to care about trees.”

5. Go up to the Makah woman at the Unlearning Racism workshop and say, "I saw a program about Crazy Horse on PBS, he did a lot for your people."

6. Act like the only people of non-white ancestry in your community are the ones visible to you.
a) Assume that light skinned people around you are white without ever knowing their ancestry.

7. Talk about race as if the only groups are black and white.
a) Talk about race as if the only groups are black, white and hispanic.
b) Talk about race as if the only groups are black, white, hispanic and asian.
c) Talk about race as if the only groups are black, white, hispanic, asian and native american.

8. Picture a violent, irrational Arab every time the word "terrorist" is mentioned. Ignore the Arabs who do not fit into this stereotype.

9. Look to a non-white person in the room every time racism is brought up.
a) Make sure they have the last and most defining word on the subject.
b) Sympathetically and silently agree with everything they say.
c) Thank them profusely.

10. Fearfully avoid assertive non-white people in your community.

11. Ask a native person, "Do you make your own jewelry?"

12. Use the identity of white anti-racist as a shield against accusations of racism.

13. Ask an Arab you don't know what they think about the war in Iraq.

14. After a non-white person in your predominantly white workplace points out racism, ask "What are some of the positives of working here?"

15. Get a [racist] white person to facilitate a panel on racism featuring non-white queer people for a predominately white audience.

16. Pit light-skinned non-white people against each other based on how they identify racially and what you think is most correct.

17. Say "I noticed a lot of Black, Filipino, and Korean people who own grocery stores sell a lot of liquor."

18. When a multiracial native person tells you their heritages, say "What a magical mix."

19. Tell a racially mixed black person, "You don't act black."

20. When you find out that someone is Mizrachi, say:
a) "You're an Arab Jew? That's fucked up."
b) "What are you talking about? I've never heard of Sephardi/Mizrachi jews. What makes you think you're a person of color?"
c) "Jews are from Europe."
d) "There are no Palestinian Jews."
e) all of the above.

21. At the last minute, get two non-white people to facilitate a workshop on racism at your skill share and make sure none of the white folks from your organization attend the workshop. Profoundly, deeply thank the facilitators.

22. If a non-white person wants to organize a workshop at your conference specific to their ethnic community, before you "let" them, ask them "How many do you need?"

23. Organize a conference with an all white organizing committee.
a) When non-white people organize at the conference and want to speak for themselves, accuse them of "hijicking" the event.
b) Tell them you will publish their written statement on your website, and wait two years to do so.

24. If you see a black man speak about racism, say, "He was so angry - but very articulate."

25. If you're white and confronted on your racism, cry.

Have you witnessed any racism lately? If so, please feel free to add your story to this list!

Workshopping for Anti-Oppression-framed Activism

This past weekend, I put together and co-facilitated an Anti-Oppression workshop as part of the intensive training course for Points of Distribution.

Points of Distribution is a direct action outreach collective based in Oakland that provides safer injection supplies, and HIV rapid testing and results to street-based injection drug users (IDUs) in both the East and West Bay.

I was recently asked to join this collective, and as a prerequisite to going on outreach shifts, we must first go through an eight week training course which covers topics such as Drugs 101, History of Drugs & the War on Drugs, STIs, HIV, Hep. A, B, C, Anti-Oppression, Civil Liberties, Homelessness & Homeless Health, Sex Work, Mental Health & Suicide, DOPE Project Training, Soft Tissue Infections, etc.

The training is *intense*, but informative and useful for getting people from different backgrounds, politics, and privileges, closer to the same page. Because of the positive feedback we received about the Anti-Oppression workshop, and the amazing conversations that were inspired from the group, I've decided to put up some of the reading materials here on the blog throughout the next few days.

The following posts are some food for thought, in hopes that the issues brought up will lubricate those anti-oppression gears in yer mind towards a society based in collective consensus rather than domination and hierarchy.

Stay tuned, and enjoy!

Anti-Oppression Work Is Ongoing, Even If We Are In San Fran-fucking-cisco

Lately, I've been extra-sensitive and frustrated about the fact that so many radical activist circles that I work with are predominantly white - and I've been noticing quite a bit of cultural insensitivity within these spaces. As a person of color, a queerdo-genderqueer-tranny-faggot, sex worker anarcho-feminist, my identities are constantly being pulled in multiple directions in search of safe, supportive community. It is both a motivation for creation and energetically draining.

For example, to be in a sex-worker-positive space means to be in a predominantly white privileged environment. Same with most anarchist scenes, with the addition of a whopping side of patriarchy and sexism. But to be in a place where I can relate with others over the social etiquettes and struggles as a queer person of color? It means that I often have to keep sex work on the down low. Anarchism is a less common frame of reference. And sometimes, I'm not even out as queer, let alone as genderqueer. I feel perpetually caught in the middle, floating, searching, but always leaving some vital part of me neglected in the end.

I've been ranting about it to friends more than usual, and my ranting about these privileged-yet-unaware activist spaces is probably starting to make me sound like I think all white people are racist - because, well, yes, I'm going to come right out and say it - White people who have grown up in our current society are socialized to be inherently racist. Period. Of course I know that there are good people doing good work, and who happen to be white. Some of my close friends come to mind. And there are some People of Color that are the worst about sensitivity and non-judgement. And I have no illusions that POC folks can't also be racist just because they are POC. But lately, I have been getting hit on all sides with general cultural insensitivity, and its fucking frustrating.

I have come to the conclusion that it is because ironically, we are in San Francisco - the land of forward politics, green culture, and radical activists! And thats just the thing - everyone is a 'lefty' activist here. Its 'cool' to be a lefty activist here. And though there is nothing wrong with that, it seems to me that at some point, the dogma surrounding anti-oppression has become more common buzz word and less critical self-reflection. Just because a person is an activist doesn't mean that they automatically get anti-oppression cred. It's not like when someone 'turns activist', they suddenly have an epiphany about what privilege means, and they become not sexist or racist etc. forever.

It seems like 'SF activist' has developed into an identity all in itself which dangerously assumes that this means said activist must already be aware of privilege, class, race, and gender issues. This assumption leads to laziness, and all of a sudden, I am finding myself in spaces where people (but especially white people) aren't self-reflecting on these issues, and how it may affect the people and social environments around them.

It is important, not only to acknowledge one's privilege, but also to ask oneself, How does this privilege frame my experience, and how do my actions affect the people and places around me?

And what are you going to do with your answers?

Anti-oppression work is an ongoing lifetime process, both within ourselves, and the world at large. These types of conversations need to happen regularly - its like activist mental maintenance to keep that anti-oppression lense clean! People have gotten comfortable in our radical sf activist bubble, and take for granted the language that has been developed to talk about __(insert political buzz word here)__, but let's see people consistently putting action to their words, please!

hah yeah. maybe my head would explode.
i drank too much coffee and i'm gonna go off.
i can feel it.
yes. i am a fucking asshole and i have high expectations towards people who call themselves activists.
no. i don't give a fuck. we are all accountable.
goddamit.
im pissed off and impatient.
my cynicism bleeds from repetitive lacerations of an optimistic heart.
picking and choosing battles, i know how to compromise in the face of this reality,
but it doesn't mean i will.

Thank you for the reminders that there is still hope. Ultimately, I am thankful for the freedom of expressions that San Francisco allows. Sometimes, I do get lost. Sometimes, it just feels good to vent to an understanding, listening friend.

Then we pick it back up, and do it again.